Am wordless. Still feeling tired for it's a hectic week for me. I guess my workload, my studyload and my lifeload are very heavy for the past few weeks.
It's Muhammad's 7th birthday today. Happy birthday, abang! Mommy luv u very much.
Let's enjoy this song today. I Got You by Leona Lewis. :-)
On this same day 10 years ago, 5 Zulhijah, my late eldest sister passed away due to cancer. At a very young age and in a very short time. She was still doing her PhD and happily married when confirmly diagnosed with cancer stage IV.
My late eldest sister was a very strong, determined person. Though she need to go through chemotherapy and consumed various pills, she still maintained her strong willingness. The doctor warned my Dad that a series of chemotherapy will make her hair fall and affect her other organs. But none of them happened. In fact, her hair and her skin still maintain pretty and clean as usual. Just that I still wonder up till now, she's very quiet from the day she returned to Kuching till her last day here. Not much talking as usual and she just kept looking at us as if she knew she'll be leaving. She returned here on 16 January 2002 and she passed away on 16 February 2002. One month exactly.
Still remember her words, "Intan, remember to read Bismillah before you do anything. Because Bismillah is the pembuka segala qalam."
I slept in her room every night at the hospital and I took turn with my other siblings to take care of her. But I was not there when she took her last breath. I had a fever and the doctor asked me to go home. All of us were not there except my eldest brother. Her closest friend. She had her last look at my eldest brother before she took her last breath. And, the last thing I remember of her is her SMILE... in her long sleep.
All these years, I only dreamt her once. A weird one actually. I was waiting for my flight to somewhere with Dad at the airport. That airport looks very Arabian style; the sofa, the stairs, the curtains, the color. Very Arabian style. I told Dad that I want to pray. So I went to a room where I met my late elder sister with some other ladies as well. All in white tudung and white jubah. I said, "Kak Nor, you're here as well?" She smiled and we prayed together. Upon finished my praying, I said to her, "Ok Kak Nor. I need to go now. See you." Again, she just smiled. No words.
In life, I give my best to maintain good relationship and friendship with everyone I know. Because life is too short. We might lose our chance and opportunity to let them know how much we care about them. Let's appreciate what we have in life. And who we have in life. Life is short, right? :-)
Enjoy this song. It's our favourite when she's still with us. Al Fatihah.
Setiap isteri mengimpikan gelaran ini; Isteri Cerdik Yang Solehah. Tiada yang sempurna di dunia ini. Kerana manusia terlalu mementingkan kesempurnaan, selalu mengabaikan kelebihan dan kebaikan yang dikurniakan Allah SWT.
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Ampunkan segala dosaku, Ya Allah! Kerana kadang kala aku lupa dengan hakikat sebenar kehidupan ini. Bimbinglah aku dan peringatkan aku setiap saat dalam kehidupanku. Amin...
Kadang-kadang, kita sering terlupa siapa diri kita sebenarnya. Alpa dan terlalu mementingkan cinta dunia, kita harus sentiasa menginsafi diri. Menilai cinta sebenar yang hakiki.
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Peringatan untuk diri sendiri:
Mencintai dan menyayangi seseorang bukan bererti kita akan dapat bersama insan tersebut. Mungkin ia sekadar ujian. Atau sekadar pertemuan singkat yang ditakdirkan untuk kita dalam kehidupan ini. Yang penting, kita harus sentiasa mendoakan kebahagiaan insan yang kita sayang. Ampunkan segala dosaku, Ya Allah! Semoga kehidupan ini sentiasa dirahmati Allah SWT. Amin...
I watched the movie, Aku Terima Nikahnya last night with Ayu, her mom n her mom's best friend. I guess it's our Girls Night Out. A good movie but I would expect something more emotional and more feelings.
I was chatting with a good friend via Skype yesterday when she mentioned one of our favourite songs during our university years. Such a memory, dear friend. Really miss those wonderful time of us.
She's one of my favourites. And this song is her best performance. Luv it!
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I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over yet
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah
Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead...