When One Door Closes

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
Alexander Graham Bell (Inventor & Educator,
best known for the invention of the telephone in 1876)

Being emotional when you feel disappointed or stressed is very common. But we must learn how to overcome this situation and handle it with patience.

Ever feel people being unfair to you? Ever feel sad for the fate that you have to accept? Take this as a challenge or test from God. We have to accept the challenge and it is not end of the world if we cannot succeed in the challenge.

I like the above mentioned quote. It's true and is always true. Life is unpredictable. Allah S.W.T. is always there with us. Salam and take care.

Langkah Seiringan

Salam to all. I heard this song on the radio yesterday morning. It reminded me of my secondary school moments.

During teens years, I love to listen to the radio. I love to listen to new songs, collecting new albums and I guess it's also a common scenario to the younger people nowadays. It's fun and exciting when we can share with our friends, our sisters (I've five sisters... so you know how it feels right? Haha...). Anyway, this song is popular when I was 13-15 years old. I miss all my friends in secondary school. Still keep in touch with a few of them but I think I lost contact with most of them.

Langkah Seiringan (Exist)

Di kala ku keseorangan
Kenangan pun datang menjelma lagi
Terbayang saat-saat yang manis
Ketika bersama dahulu

Tak tertahan menanggung rindu
Ketika kau berjauhan dariku
Bayangmu selalu datang menjelma
Membuat teguhnya cintaku

Oh sayangku
Hulurkan tanganku
Bersama kita bergandingan
Berdua menuju arah bahagia
Melalui liku-liku kehidupan
Pahit manis kita hadapi bersama
Semoga kita berdua berbahagia...

12 days

Salam to all.

I've 12 days left to complete all my tasks before I go for study leave. I need to prepare the August semester subject registration, latest student listing, my teaching subject portfolio, etc.

I feel happy, sad, confused, and fear. I'm still teaching part time though I'm going for study leave. I have too. We have 5 IT lecturers who will pursuing their studies in Master and Phd. Coincidently, one of IT lecturer moved to UiTM Sarawak (I miss her. Take care Miss Ketty and keep in touch dear!) So we have 48 extra teaching hours which we need extra lecturers to fulfill them. So I take the 8 hours (my own teaching subjects) and leave the 40 hours to the new lecturers (I requested two).

I've been a student before. But now I'm not just a student. I'm a full time wife, a full time mother (to my son, Muhammad and my lil' daughter, Iman Najiha still breastfeed), a part time lecturer and a full time student. Haha... Sounds scary to me! I've discussed with my boss and the HR officer. So I'll submit my study leave notice to the college management on next Monday.

I just wonder how my life will be in this coming 2 years. Is it possible to slim down while juggling all the tasks? Haha... I hope so. Can I cope up with my study? (I graduated 8 years ago) Then I need to practice and read the Doa Belajar again. Great! I can practice with my two lil' ones everyday.

Alright... see ya' in the next entry! Salam.

I'm A Student

Salam to all.

I've been in silent mode for the last few weeks because...

of my patience and silence while waiting for my Master application result. Alhamdulillah... Syukur kepada Allah S.W.T. I'll be taking my study leave starting end of July as my Master class will start commencing that time.

So now I'm a student, a part-time lecturer, full-time housewife to my hubby and full-time mommy to Muhammad and Iman Najiha. Lately, Muhammad keep on complaining why I need to go out so frequently. Sorry sayang, Mommy's workload banyak sangat since the last few weeks.



And the latest activity I joined is YOGA.

To tell u the truth, I LOVE YOGA. I realized I'm more relaxed and more calm. It even improved my sleep pattern. I felt more energetic but still relax. Plus I consumed Shaklee vitamins as well.

Anyway, I need to run some errands later. See u in the next entry. Salam.

I'm Back to Work

Salam to all.

I was on leave for a week. Alhamdulillah. I was so happy to spend more time with my two lil' ones for the whole week. We went jalan-jalan, makan-makan, and I can see both of them were so excited. Insya Allah! I plan to bring them for vacation soon. My choices; A'Famosa Resort, Melaka and Genting Highlands.

I'll be having an interview for Master in Advanced IT, UNIMAS on this coming Friday. Insya Allah! If they approve my Master application, I'm going to take study leave and concentrate on my study. This is my second attempt for Master application. First, I apply at UiTM Sarawak, but they offered me research based Master which I rejected their offer. Hopefully I'll succeed in this one. Ya Allah! Permudahkanlah jalannya bagiku dan berkatilah segala usahaku.

I've a lot of plans for myself and my two lil' ones if I'm taking study leave starting July 2010. Let me share here. For myself; teaching part time, studying part time, and full time mommy to Muhammad and Iman Najiha. For Muhammad; I plan to send him for Maths class @ KUMON, reading class @ The Vital Years and recite Al-Quran class . For Iman Najiha; I just want to spend more time with her.

To all my dear students, the result will be released tomorrow. I'll arrange three sessions for us to meet and consult based on your result as there's a slight drop in previous semester's result. I'm looking forward to see you all and hope we can identify and resolve any problem arising from all of you.

Syukran

Salam pagi Jumaat untuk jiwa-jiwa yang tenang. Semoga hati kita sentiasa diterangi cahaya hidayah dariNya. Semoga kesibukan kita pada hari ini bermanfaat dan bermakna. Semoga kita sentiasa sihat dan penuh semangat menjalankan kewajipanNya. Selamat bekerja dan menjalankan ibadah hari ini dengan penuh bermakna. Kerana setiap dari kita mempunyai tujuan hidup yang sama, iaitu BAHAGIA. Bahagia di dunia dan juga akhirat.

I asked Allah for STRENGTH...

And Allah gave me DIFFICULTIES to make me STRONG...

I asked for WISDOM...

And Allah gave me PROBLEMS to solved...

I asked for PROSPERITY...

And Allah gave me BRAIN and BRAWN to work...

I asked for COURAGE...

And Allah gave me DANGER to overcome...

I asked for LOVE...

And Allah gave me TROUBLED PEOPLE to help...

I asked for FAVORS...

And Allah gave me OPPORTUNITIES...

I received NOTHING I wanted...

But I received EVERYTHING I needed...

Alhamdulillah... Syukur kepada Allah S.W.T. atas segala nikmat yang diberikan kepada hambaMu yang kerdil ini!

Berubah atau Berhijrah?

Salam to all. I received an email from a good friend this morning. Last week, we chatted about changes in people which can be seen directly or indirectly. I'm referring to someone that I didn't expect to change. Someone whom I respected and admired so much. I never expected him to change as I know he has a strong belief and a very committed person.

But the email really open my heart.

"Orang yang BERUBAH kerana terpaksa adalah MANGSA KEADAAN."

"Orang yang BERHIJRAH kerana manusia adalah MANGSA KERUGIAN."

"Tapi orang yang BERJAYA dan BERUNTUNG adalah orang yang memaksa dirinya untuk berubah demi REDHA ALLAH S.W.T."

Maybe it's true. I cannot blame him for his changes, it's due to surroundings and influence around him. But I'm sad because I really admired him for his strong belief. (sigh)

Well, he likes his new changes. I can see it through his words. So let it be. Insya Allah! God will lighten his heart to improve to a better person. Amin...

Happy Mother's Day

Salam to all. From the bottom of my heart, I'd like to wish HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all gorgeous moms on earth. Especially, to my mom, my late grandma and my mom-in-law.

To my dearest mom, thank you for everything. You're always there for me, through happiness and sorrow of my life. I miss my late grandma, whom I shared a lot of things including my love story. Though she's not here anymore with me, I still can feel her warm love around me. As I know she loved her grandchildren and great-grandchilren very much.

I just wish to be appreciated being a mom. Sometimes people always thought appreciation must be displayed through gifts, presents, etc. But for me, I want an appreciation from my loveD one. I hope one day he'll understand the meaning of being a family with our children. It's something that he needs to understand and appreciate. Life is very short. We must appreciate and enjoy every second of our life. Especially with our family.

Ya Allah! Permudahkanlah segala urusanku. Berikanlah petunjuk dan hidayah kepadaku dan juga pasanganku untuk kami sama-sama mendidik anak-anak kami dengan cemerlang. Amin.

Happy Day

Salam to all. Happy day to everyone! It's the revision week for my students. I'm preparing the final exam papers; Software Development and Human Computer Interaction. Two sets of exam papers with the answer scheme. Hihihi... I need to brainstorm today, lacking ideas on how to set the questions.

My lil' Iman will turn 1 year 4 months next week. So my breastfeeding journey will also turn 16 months next week. Alhamdulillah. 8 more months to go and I'll complete my 2 years breastfeeding with lil' Iman. I'm actually worried if my milk supply is not enough for lil' Iman but it seems the supply is more than enough for her. She loves to eat. Seriously, maybe due to various Shaklee supplements that I consume everyday. I love to see her smile when she enjoyed her meal. Hihihi... I love to eat during my pregnancy with lil' Iman. Perhaps she inherit it from me. I still remember one night (I was 8 months pregnant), I suddenly want to eat steak and it was 9 p.m. Kesian my hubby... He asked me to get ready and we both went out to search for steak. Alhamdulillah. I ate steak and he ate lamb chop. Yummy!

Totally different than her brother, lil' Iman loves to eat but lil' Muhammad doesn't like to eat. So I tried my best to balance lil' Muhammad's nutritional intake. On alternate days, I gave him ESP+his milk, mealshake+his milk, Vit C, MultiVit, and also a combination of jus kurma+saffron+madu+almond. TADA... he's an active kid and a smart boy too!

I plan to go to gym. Hope my hubby wants to join me. It feels better if he's around with me. Coz' I feel uncomfortable to go alone. Else, I want to invite Mae (my colleague). It's great to have at least one visit to the gym in a week. Or two, or three... Hihihi...

Muhammad and My Life

Salam to all. I felt VERY HAPPY for my lil' son, Muhammad. He scored 100% in his spelling test yesterday. Congratulations sayang!

His spelling test was supposed to be on last Wednesday. Unfortunately, Muhammad had fever and my hubby fetched him from school earlier. Being an active kid, I felt sad when I saw him just lying down and kept telling me that he was sick. Alhamdulillah. He recovered last Friday.

I decided to further my study. So I've been looking for potential university to do my Master. I had attended interview and submitted my application. The only problem is no coursework program is offered for Master in Computer Science/IT field right here. A local university offered me to do research for my Master but I rejected their offer.

Talking about my Master decision, I knew a lady for years who I assumed as nice and intelligent. But there's one thing I don't understand about her; she's being too competitive and she'll do anything to make sure she's on top of others in everything. I met her recently. I guess she heard the news that I'll further my Master soon. And she's been telling me on her plan to further her study too. Alright... being a supportive person, I encouraged her as well. She talked about her sponsorship by government, plan on her kids which she thought would be easier to bring over a relative with her to take care of them, her other plans, etc. I asked her on her Master option; either by coursework or by research. AND SURPRISE!!! She didn't even know the difference between coursework and research. VOILA! I'm totally shocked. I said, "How can you simply talk and tell me on your plans if you didn't even know the difference in Master basis?" Being a sweet talker, she really know how to give excuses. At last, I'm the one who explained to her about Master basis and which basis is commonly used for her area. Funny though! Seriously, I doubt she's really keen to make it BIG and even BIGGER than mine. Hihihi...

Nevertheless, her attitude makes me think and realize about life; BE YOURSELF and BE HUMBLE. Insya Allah! I'll make a paradigm shift in my life this year. My priority is me, my lil' prince and my lil' princess.

To my precious Muhammad and Iman Najiha, mommy love both of you very much. Mommy will work harder and smarter to improve our life. Mommy will make sure both of you will get the BEST in everything that Mommy able to provide especially in education.

Untuk suamiku yang tercinta, kita berdua sudah banyak menempuh dugaan sepanjang 8 tahun perkahwinan ini. Anak-anak merupakan anugerah Allah S.W.T. kepada kita berdua. Dengan rasa rendah hati, isterimu ini cuma meminta, letakkan kami di antara keutamaan dalam hidupmu dan hargailah kehadiran kami yang memerlukan perhatian dan kasih sayangmu.

P.S. To Donarose, thank you for the award. I'm really honoured, dear. To my sis EE, thank you for all your support especially in Muhammad's education. I love you sis!