Only Allah SWT understands my heart

Salam to all.

I feel depressed and sad today. I don't know how to express my feelings but I give my best not to show my sorrow.

In life, children are gifts from Allah SWT. As parents, we are responsible to guide them, to love them, to take care of them, and to educate them. In my life, I've to wait for three years before Allah SWT blessed me with my first child~lil' Muhammad. I never expect another child due to my right ovary condition. Alhamdulillah. Allah SWT blessed me with my second child~lil' Iman Najiha.

I wish people understand the importance of children in their lives. They're our responsibilities and NOT a burden to us. Why people don't understand that?

Before I sleep, I'll look at my children faces and imagine their bright future to come. When I wake up early in the morning, I'll look at my children faces and imagine what I can do today to make their life happy and cheerful.

Only Allah SWT knows how I feel...

Assignment and Research Paper

Salam to all. I've been doing lots of reading lately. It's the preparation for my assignment and research paper on this particular subject. Seriously... I -hate- (ooppsss...) this subject. But I'm giving my best to complete them.

My assignment is writing a survey report on the latest telecommunication technology which can be introduced to an organization. Mmm... I need help! HELP ME! I just wonder how on earth those technical people merely understand all these technical terms. OMG!

My research paper is writing on ~VEHICULAR NETWORK~!. Any suggestion for this research paper? I'm dying.... Hahaha.... I'm toasted!!!

I love writing. And reading. I purchased several books for my extra reading ~a few English and Malay novels, motivational books and of course... my reference books. I need the novels -for my leisure time-. I need the motivational books -I need motivation.. I do... seriously!-.

I registered Muhammad at Kumon for his Maths class. I love Kumon techniques, motivating the students on independence learning. It's a great approach and I'm confident Muhammad will love it. Will include Muhammad's first class at Kumon in my next entry.

The Value of Life

Salam. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all. It's being so hectic lately and I've left my wonderful blog alone for so long... I'm really sorry my dear blog. Thanks to all for the birthday wishes I've received today.

Sometimes...

ALLAH breaks our spirit to save our soul

ALLAH breaks our heart to make us a complete person

ALLAH sends us pain so we can be stronger

ALLAH sends us failure so we can be humble

ALLAH sends us illness so we can always remind ourselves

Sometimes...

ALLAH push us to measure how strong and persistence we are

Sometimes...

ALLAH takes everything away from us

so we can learn THE VALUE OF EVERYTHING ALLAH gave us.

PadaMu Ku Bersujud

Ku menatap dalam kelam

Tiada yang bisa ku lihat

Selain hanya namaMu ya Allah

Esok ataukah nanti

Ampuni semua salahku

Lindungi aku dari segala fitnah

Kau tempatku meminta

Kau beriku bahagia

Jadikan aku selamanya

HambaMu yang selalu bertaubat

Ampuniku ya Allah

Yang sering melupakanMu

Saat Kau melimpahkan kurniaMu

Dalam sunyi aku bersujud

PadaMu...

Ampunkan segala dosaku Ya Allah... Bimbinglah hati dan jiwa ini ke jalan yang diredhaiMu...

A New Phase

Salam Ramadhan to all.

My life is going through a new phase at the moment. I'm now a full time housewife to my hubby n a mom to my two lil' ones, a full time student n a part time lecturer. I spent everyday for my family, 3 days at campus for seminar, lectures n labs, n 1 day at college to give lectures.

I'm still in the process of adjusting myself to my new schedule. I feel happy n sad at the same time. I miss my time with friends n colleagues at college but I'm also excited n happy in treasuring every moment of my time with lil' Muhammad n lil' Iman Najiha. Alhamdulillah. Allah S.W.T. had granted me with my wish n I always pray to him the path that has been given to me will be smooth n bearable.

Al-Fatihah to a good friend of mine who passed away two weeks ago. I always thought my life is tough, almost forgotten those who face bigger challenges in life compared to mine. To my dear friend, Lady R: Mudah-mudahan Allah S.W.T. sentiasa melindungimu dan juga anak-anakmu. Kami sentiasa mendoakan yang terbaik untukmu sekeluarga. Ia adalah cabaran yang paling hebat dan aku tidak pernah berjumpa dengan wanita setabahmu. Jaga kesihatan terutama kandunganmu. Life must goes on...

When One Door Closes

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
Alexander Graham Bell (Inventor & Educator,
best known for the invention of the telephone in 1876)

Being emotional when you feel disappointed or stressed is very common. But we must learn how to overcome this situation and handle it with patience.

Ever feel people being unfair to you? Ever feel sad for the fate that you have to accept? Take this as a challenge or test from God. We have to accept the challenge and it is not end of the world if we cannot succeed in the challenge.

I like the above mentioned quote. It's true and is always true. Life is unpredictable. Allah S.W.T. is always there with us. Salam and take care.

Langkah Seiringan

Salam to all. I heard this song on the radio yesterday morning. It reminded me of my secondary school moments.

During teens years, I love to listen to the radio. I love to listen to new songs, collecting new albums and I guess it's also a common scenario to the younger people nowadays. It's fun and exciting when we can share with our friends, our sisters (I've five sisters... so you know how it feels right? Haha...). Anyway, this song is popular when I was 13-15 years old. I miss all my friends in secondary school. Still keep in touch with a few of them but I think I lost contact with most of them.

Langkah Seiringan (Exist)

Di kala ku keseorangan
Kenangan pun datang menjelma lagi
Terbayang saat-saat yang manis
Ketika bersama dahulu

Tak tertahan menanggung rindu
Ketika kau berjauhan dariku
Bayangmu selalu datang menjelma
Membuat teguhnya cintaku

Oh sayangku
Hulurkan tanganku
Bersama kita bergandingan
Berdua menuju arah bahagia
Melalui liku-liku kehidupan
Pahit manis kita hadapi bersama
Semoga kita berdua berbahagia...

12 days

Salam to all.

I've 12 days left to complete all my tasks before I go for study leave. I need to prepare the August semester subject registration, latest student listing, my teaching subject portfolio, etc.

I feel happy, sad, confused, and fear. I'm still teaching part time though I'm going for study leave. I have too. We have 5 IT lecturers who will pursuing their studies in Master and Phd. Coincidently, one of IT lecturer moved to UiTM Sarawak (I miss her. Take care Miss Ketty and keep in touch dear!) So we have 48 extra teaching hours which we need extra lecturers to fulfill them. So I take the 8 hours (my own teaching subjects) and leave the 40 hours to the new lecturers (I requested two).

I've been a student before. But now I'm not just a student. I'm a full time wife, a full time mother (to my son, Muhammad and my lil' daughter, Iman Najiha still breastfeed), a part time lecturer and a full time student. Haha... Sounds scary to me! I've discussed with my boss and the HR officer. So I'll submit my study leave notice to the college management on next Monday.

I just wonder how my life will be in this coming 2 years. Is it possible to slim down while juggling all the tasks? Haha... I hope so. Can I cope up with my study? (I graduated 8 years ago) Then I need to practice and read the Doa Belajar again. Great! I can practice with my two lil' ones everyday.

Alright... see ya' in the next entry! Salam.

I'm A Student

Salam to all.

I've been in silent mode for the last few weeks because...

of my patience and silence while waiting for my Master application result. Alhamdulillah... Syukur kepada Allah S.W.T. I'll be taking my study leave starting end of July as my Master class will start commencing that time.

So now I'm a student, a part-time lecturer, full-time housewife to my hubby and full-time mommy to Muhammad and Iman Najiha. Lately, Muhammad keep on complaining why I need to go out so frequently. Sorry sayang, Mommy's workload banyak sangat since the last few weeks.



And the latest activity I joined is YOGA.

To tell u the truth, I LOVE YOGA. I realized I'm more relaxed and more calm. It even improved my sleep pattern. I felt more energetic but still relax. Plus I consumed Shaklee vitamins as well.

Anyway, I need to run some errands later. See u in the next entry. Salam.

I'm Back to Work

Salam to all.

I was on leave for a week. Alhamdulillah. I was so happy to spend more time with my two lil' ones for the whole week. We went jalan-jalan, makan-makan, and I can see both of them were so excited. Insya Allah! I plan to bring them for vacation soon. My choices; A'Famosa Resort, Melaka and Genting Highlands.

I'll be having an interview for Master in Advanced IT, UNIMAS on this coming Friday. Insya Allah! If they approve my Master application, I'm going to take study leave and concentrate on my study. This is my second attempt for Master application. First, I apply at UiTM Sarawak, but they offered me research based Master which I rejected their offer. Hopefully I'll succeed in this one. Ya Allah! Permudahkanlah jalannya bagiku dan berkatilah segala usahaku.

I've a lot of plans for myself and my two lil' ones if I'm taking study leave starting July 2010. Let me share here. For myself; teaching part time, studying part time, and full time mommy to Muhammad and Iman Najiha. For Muhammad; I plan to send him for Maths class @ KUMON, reading class @ The Vital Years and recite Al-Quran class . For Iman Najiha; I just want to spend more time with her.

To all my dear students, the result will be released tomorrow. I'll arrange three sessions for us to meet and consult based on your result as there's a slight drop in previous semester's result. I'm looking forward to see you all and hope we can identify and resolve any problem arising from all of you.