Another Entry for Today

Salam to all. My second entry for today. Lil' Iman is sleeping. Lil' Muhammad is having his Kumon class.

Reunion with my long time friend, Rafidah

Sushi sushi... so yummy!

It's me with the camera. And Rafidah jadi model. Hahaha...

It was a long chat with her. After almost 8 to 9 years, we met again two weeks ago at Secret Recipe, Satok. Then I brought her to Sushi King, The Hills. Really enjoyed our time together. Cerita kita nang sik pernah habis Fidah.

She's also a blogger. Check out her blog in my blog list. Fidah, mun kitak datang ke Kuching kelak kita ke Sushi King lagik k??? Hahaha...

P.S. Marina, mun molah reunion lagik kelak pilih tempat best2 k!

End of 2010

Salam to all. How's everyone? 2010 is almost over. 2011 is coming soon.

Year end checklist:

• Semester 2 registration at Unimas (Done!)
• High-tea at PJ Height (Teacher Madam, luv our hi-tea session. Really enjoy my meatloaf baking time there. Will bake pizza in our next hi-tea k?)
• Muhammad's registration at SRK Green Road (This coming Thursday)
• Iman's last jab at Kuching Specialist (This coming Friday)
• New bag (Mr. AJ, can I have one puhleeasseee???)

2011 resolution:

• Completion of my Master degree
• Summer holiday at UK (whole family vacation... I'm thrilled! By the way Mr. AJ, can I have at least one Chanel or LV or Coach or Mulberry in UK puhleeasseee???)
• Muhammad and Iman progressing to recite Al-Quran

So far, I only have these in my list. Will update them soon as I review my life goals. I ever read in a book; outline our life goals in pyramid form, including long term and short term goals. Keep reviewing them and update them accordingly to our life.

Mmm... I'll post my review of several books I purchased. Seriously, I'm hooked to books. I wish I can have a huge library of my own. Mr. AJ, can I have one in our dream home???

Holiday...

Salam to all. My parents, sisters, brothers, nieces and nephews were busy with their holiday in Australia. Me? I'm busy with my LONG holiday with my lil' ones. And my loving hubby of course.

Iman Najiha will turn 2 soon. She's a fast learner and can speak clearly now. She understand our instruction and she likes to ask lots of questions. Muhammad is progressing with his Kumon class and he's very excited with his new teachers and friends. I'm very close to both and I wish I can be with them all the time. Actually, my hubby asked me whether I want to follow him to join the Borneo Scout Jamboree which started today at Sambas, Indonesia. I told him it would be uneasy for me to leave our lil' ones here. He agreed with me and he said he felt the same way too. Thank u for your understanding, my dear hubby. Enjoy your trip darling!

Mmm... actually I'm also in the process of compiling my subject portfolio for the previous semester. I taught one subject for four hours per week. It will be similar for the coming semester. Just that I'm not sure which subject will be delegate to me. I've been teaching Software Development, Human Computer Interaction, Web Programming, Introduction to E-Commerce, and a few more for the past several years. I hope they will delegate me one of these. Please... ;-D

Anyway, for the new visitors; thank you for visiting my humble blog. Just a blog for this mother of two to express her thoughts and opinion. Take care everyone!

Salam Maal Hijrah

Salam Maal Hijrah to all!

It's Awal Muharram... an important day to all Muslims. Indicating a new beginning in muslim year and life of course. The migration of one from the previous year to a new year. It reminds the muslims on the migration of Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. from Mecca to Medina on the first day of Muharram in 622 A.D.

A time for us to evaluate ourselves. What are our achievements in the previous year? Do we achieve our targets? What are the obstacles and opportunities that we encountered?

Mmm...

For me, the most challenged one is...

"Bersederhana dalam segala perkara..."

It's the most difficult one for me. I pray for it. And I hope I can achieve it though there are so many "dugaan"...

"Bersederhana itu tanda kita sentiasa bersyukur atas nikmat dan rezeki Tuhan."

Insya Allah! I'll give my best to fully achieve it this year...

Untuk suamiku tercinta,
Terima kasih kerana selalu mengingatkan aku tentang sikap bersederhana, memahami sifat isterimu yang sensitif dan sentiasa bersabar dengan dugaan kita. Selama menyambut Maal Hijrah suamiku. Semoga permulaan yang baru ini membuka lembaran baru untuk kita dan anak-anak yang tersayang.

Exam Fever...

Salam to all. How's your day? I'm enjoying each moment with my notes, my lil' ones, and my life. It's totally different now to prepare myself for the final exam as the last time I prepared for that was eight years ago. Hihihi... I felt different now as I have two handbags to carry around... Hahaha... My lil' ones of course!

To all my students, my coursemates, those who are taking SPM n STPM, best of luck n may we all pass with flying colors! Chaiyok chaiyok!

Syukur...

Salam to all. Alhamdulillah. Syukur kepada Allah S.W.T. atas segala nikmat dan rahmat.

It's my exam weeks. I'm busy struggling with my notes and my lil' ones as well... I love both of them soooo muchhhh....

I need motivation... motivation... motivation....

Ya Allah! Berikanlah aku hidayah dan kekuatan untuk menghadapi segala dugaanMu...

Accepting The Truth in Life

Salam to all. I'm doing lots of reading and writing for the past few days. It's my project on Vehicular Network. My partner is Rohaya, a lecturer in Politeknik Kuching. We're writing on safety applications available on vehicular network. I'm still writing and almost complete. But need to conclude the project tonight with her and compile our project as our submission and presentation is tomorrow.

I had bad moments and good moments in life. However, as I mentioned before, I never thought my decision to take full time study leave is gonna be this difficult. I always wonder if I'm doing the right decision or not. But someone ever told me before. Any decision that we made, we have to bear the obstacles that might occur on it.

I believe in balancing our life and relationship. I believe when the other part is hard and the other part must be soft. Give and take is very important. But I dunno. I've started not to believe in that anymore.

How I wish I'm a strong person. I'm not actually as I'm a very sensitive person. Dunno how long I can bear these anymore. I keep reminding myself; I'm very fortunate because Allah S.W.T. granted me with lil' Muhammad and lil' Iman Najiha. They are the most wonderful things that ever happened in my life. The gifts that I'll never forget for the rest of my life.

I wish... _____ can appreciate me and realize about my existence in _____ life. Not only me, but also my children. I just wish.

I always told myself, ______ and I believe that.

But this morning... Something happened. Which made me think. Maybe I tried too hard to believe such things. What if I stop trying?

What will happen next? Maybe I'll feel better. Who knows?

I Spoil Myself

Salam to all. Alhamdulillah. I feel much much better today. Thanks to my friends aka bloggers who are very concern with me. I'm better now.

I can't think on anything yesterday. Feel so sad n I don't even know what else to do. I'm totally lost... Suddenly, I feel like I want to spoil myself with something. I went to spa yesterday. I did body scrub, milk bath, tungku massage, facial n I even cut my hair to a new style. The result??? I FEEL SOOOOO GOOOOODDDDD!!!!!!!!

So now I can think properly. Yes, we need to think carefully before we put into action. I'm scared too. Anything is possible when we're under pressure. So I took a deep breath n drive direct to my favourite spa centre. I spoil myself for almost 5 hours. It's worth it....

My advice; please think wisely n be sensible. I'm learning to deal with my pain. So next time, I know what to do when I feel it again. Thank you so much to my dear friends who are also bloggers; nurHeart n mummySyafie for their concern. I luv u guys!!!

Kebahagiaan Dalam Perpisahan

Salam to all. I dunno how to describe my feelings today. I feel depressed. I feel angry. I feel sad. Maybe this song can describe how I actually feel today.

Kebahagiaan Dalam Perpisahan

Tak perlu ucapkan sepatah kata

Kerna lantang terbaca dari muka

Kau dan daku sudah tiada

Keserasian di jiwa

Mungkin magisnya sudah hilang

Tak perlulah kita mencuba lagi

Betulkan kesilapan perhubungan ini

Bila setiap perbincangan

Menjadi perbalahan

Mana agaknya cinta kasih

Embun pun takkan mampu menyubur sekuntum

Bunga yang layu pada musim luruh

Yang dulunya mekar disinar suria

Bila sudah kering pasti akan gugur

Seperti cinta kita yang jelas ternyata

Semakin lama oh semakin rekah

Menimbulkan tanya apa mungkin kita

Temu kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan

Usah titis air mata kau tangiskan

Ku dah cukup menampung selautan

Begitu lama ku pendam

Tapi hanya berdiam

Kerna cuba menafi realiti

Seperti cinta kita yang jelas ternyata

Semakin lama oh semakin rekah

Menimbulkan tanya apa mungkin kita

Temu kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan...

A Cloudy Day

Salam to all. It's a cloudy day today. A cloudy day in my life too. I dunno... (sigh)

Just dunno how to describe my feelings today. It's complicated. My heart, my soul n my mind are very cluttered with lots of things. I wish I've a better day today. (sigh)

I must focus on my goals! Insya Allah! I must achieve them. I always thought my decision to take full time study leave will improve lots of things in my life. Never know it's gonna be this difficult. Too many obstacles that I need to go through. Sometimes it really hurts when others have no appreciation on your effort in their life. For me, appreciation is very important in our relationship with others. So how do u feel when others have no appreciation on u? It hurts. Especially when u know that person for so many years.

Ya Allah! Lindungilah aku dan bimbinglah aku ke jalan yang diredhaiMu. Amin.